Sleepless Nights

It was one of the sleepless nights.
Truly it was tiring, but just can't seem to bring myself to bed.
Scrolling up and down.
Reading this and that.

My back hurts a lot.
I was not sitting properly.
Talk to him and her.
Writing emails for him and her.

Unproductive evening.
Daydreaming doesn't work this time.
Instead watching how Heath Ledger was taken out his apartment.
Absurd.

Up again, walking to the bedroom door.
Lay down.
Stretching.
Trying to close my eyes and imagine what if I won't wake up tomorrow

Scared but really wanting not to wake up
Get up from the bed again.
Backed to my computer.
Surfed.

Indecisive
Don't know who to follow mind or body.
Body wants to sleep
Mind don't want to go

3:30 a.m. I should be in bed