I don't know why new friends, former classmates, old friends and etc would come to ask me the same questions again and again. Why do you need to work so hard? And how do you manage to be on the clock 16-18hours daily?
I've always been dreaming of running my own company ever since. I told myself once, maybe this is what I always wanted to do in the future or maybe this is where my skills and my approach to life leads me to be doing for forever.
There were a lot of sacrifices and the other wonderful part of doing it is being able to help myself achieve and get things I've always wanted, and give what my family needs.
I don't earn that much but slowly I'm getting there and I know that. I have great confidence in what I do and I take pride in what I do.
With all my hardships, I've been through ups and downs and I've cried, I've lost, I've invested again and then again I've lost but it doesn't make me decide to quit. I've did what I thought is right. I don't know if I have stepped on someone. There is one thing I'm sure of not getting is finding myself a man and settling down.
I don't regret it but it made me think especially when I'm alone. I also didn't get to be that outgoing with a lot of people. But I do spend a lot of time online.
I can't have both worlds that could and would make me happy. I can't have everything I always wanted. In the first place, I know I can't be forever happy but somehow I still find happiness although not the everlasting type.
I don't know if I've been a good daughter or a good sister. All I know is I am being me and I worked hard to get to where I am.