Lessons 102

I don't know why new friends, former classmates, old friends and etc would come to ask me the same questions again and again. Why do you need to work so hard? And how do you manage to be on the clock 16-18hours daily?

I've always been dreaming of running my own company ever since. I told myself once, maybe this is what I always wanted to do in the future or maybe this is where my skills and my approach to life leads me to be doing for forever.

There were a lot of sacrifices and the other wonderful part of doing it is being able to help myself achieve and get things I've always wanted, and give what my family needs.

I don't earn that much but slowly I'm getting there and I know that. I have great confidence in what I do and I take pride in what I do.

With all my hardships, I've been through ups and downs and I've cried, I've lost, I've invested again and then again I've lost but it doesn't make me decide to quit. I've did what I thought is right. I don't know if I have stepped on someone. There is one thing I'm sure of not getting is finding myself a man and settling down.

I don't regret it but it made me think especially when I'm alone. I also didn't get to be that outgoing with a lot of people. But I do spend a lot of time online.

I can't have both worlds that could and would make me happy. I can't have everything I always wanted. In the first place, I know I can't be forever happy but somehow I still find happiness although not the everlasting type.

I don't know if I've been a good daughter or a good sister. All I know is I am being me and I worked hard to get to where I am.

Waaaaaaaaaaaa!!

I can't think of any title for this post. I couldn't believe I've been quiet for so long. I haven't wrote anything in the past months. Gosh! I miss this.

Like I always said, blogging is one way of expressing myself, what I feel, what I think about this and that. I am so not into social web past months. I have been very busy plus there were trips outside the country.

The first trip was for fun. Trip was all about spending time with friends. Friends back at the university. Everyone else was busy with these and that and getting out of the country was one way to get me and friends really spend hours talking, walking, eating together and etc...

Then I decided to quit on my job. I got this new job and moved out of Davao, went to Manila, now in Sucat, Paranaque doing medical billing. Like I always expected. Getting yourself into something new is never easy. This was my thought when I first got this job offer in February. I know that I am used to things within MTC and now if I will accept the offer, I will definitely have to start from the beginning.

Life goes on. Life is never easy. I'm happy though. Keep smiling.

Working Holidays

I miss this part of me. I miss writing relentlessly not minding my grammar and I just want to blurt it out like I used to. I do not care if you get to understand everything or you don't.

I thought I was lucky to get this deal. Change that, I am happy to get that deal but not to the extent that I am gonna be working for the holidays. Or should I consider that it is part of that deal? So alright, I was just not ready to change my sleeping habits to something like a vampire or creature of the night.

I got myself into this so I would to stay and endure it. Even if I was told put my hands off the project, I can not turn my back on it. I need this done and I will be part of it even if I don't do it 100% because some people placed their trust on my leadership.

Great! Life sucks and who wouldn't know it doesn't. Surprises and surprises...and I am pretty sure there's more to come.

When Personal Stuff Clashes with Office Stuff

I wish I did not write something about this. But I always stick to the bigger goal that when writing this insight I might and could have picked up something to learn about.

It did not happen to me. It happened to somebody else. Two points are, I think, correct and can be considered right as to each stand point. Somehow things are not an advantage to both. Why did I say that? When right things clashes together, there something in that clash that just got to be wrong or not right at all.

In human ways, society set these group of righteousness but to once point of views can not be right nor correct. Example at school. We are asked to wear them all the time. That rule is somehow accepted by most but not by the remaining few. Some may not like it. I do not know their reason but as human we have got to understand and respect that. Although, the saddest point in the end is that the remaining few left no choice but to follow. No matter how many times the remaining few tried to explain their side, it is just not right nor correct for it is against the human laws which is again made up by society.

There is nothing wrong with human laws or the rules made up by society because it is for the better. We all live harmoniously only because of these laws. But, as human, we should not forget on reflecting what had happened to us earlier on (if we are on that situation where we felt we were misunderstood).

As much as I wanted to earn big bucks, I do not want to earn it while bringing others down. It is not my style and I am raised to live with my values. I do appreciate the honesty and I am sad that you told me this when everything else is getting better. I get to help you find your client and then my world just drop for 48 hours because you felt like I am competing with your business. Professionaly, I do know when to stop especially after putting myself into your shoes. It is not on my list to bring someone down and bring myself up. It is a smart thing to do but, again, I have my values. So do not feel threatened or what because I am not going to be the person to bring you down. Never

2009 Objectives

I wanted to be a "Trainee" in anywhere of the US soil. The reason behind it is I would like to explore more avenues of building my career. I am single and workaholic. I am guessing that I am way to busy to even think of me settling down even if my batchmates are settling down.

I am currently busy with gathering all required papers and reviewing own training outline. I am hoping though that I can get this done and deal kind of thing. I was expecting some help from people I know but unfortunately I do not see any willingness to help me. I will still push this agenda and pray that I will get this.

There is no one to help me with this but only me. If ever someone will lend their hands I will gladly accept that.

Corporate World

It is a typical day at the University where you go in the classroom because you have a class. Professor talks about the good the bad and the ugly in accordance to what his experience are and what the recommended book says. You were unintentionaly lead to the belief that you will be doing this and that once you work for real. You set your mind into something hypothetical. It is not real at all. It is real for him for they have experienced it whilst the facts that were detailed and taught to us his students.

The funniest is after college. I thought it is easier to put up and manage my own business. If I solely depend on my education, I would be running my business to disaster. Eventually that happened to me. I spent thousands of pesos on to a desktop plublishing business, although I made it to breakeven but to any businessman a breakeven does not mean profit.

It is hard to believe and especially accept that I paid college tiution at a prestigious university only to believe on hypothesis and make myself over confident that I can make it big in the next five years. I have somehow realized that I did that to myself and not my professors or the university I went to. I made the choice and I made the assumptions so I have to blame me. Going back to "hard to believe and especially accept", blaming myself is another example to that.

I am now working butt off, working hard both day and night. I felt I am not paid what I believe, is due to me. Then again I must think I was squeezing my staff because I was literally not earning enough to pay what is due to them. I step back and think again that my professors are right. I just understood them in a different way and that understanding is only to my advantage.

The world where I am now keeps me up to date to what is new. I love it because my body seems to be enjoying it too despite the stress, pressure, body pains, lack of sleep, not eating at the exact time or skipping meals and etcetera.

The corporate world is not always as relaxing as compared to university or college days. Once you are working, you will feel beat up at the end of the day. You will love it when it is pay day. You will slowly see yourself wanting a credit card. You will see yourself wearing branded clothes. You will see yourself buying gadget every Christmas bonus. You will see your shoe rack with shoes that you do not actually need. You will see yourself eating at a fancy restaurant. You will love it, hate it, despise coworker or even your boss. You will feel victory and receive memo for unsatisfactory conduct. And the list goes on.

Aftermath of Quitting

I am so afraid of quitting. Normally I would like to do something for a long time but when I am finally doing and enjoying, at one point in time I just do not want to continue doing it. Inside me is a battle of whether or not to move to the next level or should I say.

After so many times of feeling down after another is like a roller coaster ride that never end. I started to view the other side of my coin, appreciating what today has for me and stop worrying about my future and lingering on my past. What makes it even worse is living everyday moving forward because you do not have any other choice after quitting.

The idea of moving on is somehow easy to think but really hard to do. Even if you tell yourself everyday that you got the best foot forward and you are going to be just alright, the other foot seems like nailed on that ground that it does not want to let go.

I got to be strong. I got to be awakened. It just got to be. (Inhale, Exhale)

Reflection: Wiser Thought

I was upset yesterday. It was clearly a misunderstanding, I think, it was definitely a clash of human reactions of what they want and what they don not want. Believe me or not, it took me to think about what I should and could have learned from that until 1am. I can not believe it was that long for me to realize that it was definitely non sense.

In the Office the Next Day, July 31, 2008.

She didn't say good morning to me when she came in. Or did she? Even though I was not able to set up the interview the other day, I was able to make them come again the next day to do the interview. I was glad I was able to do it. I have big ears and it can hear people talking behind my back. Not really that I have big ears physically but as a person like me who in everyday try to put that smile on her face, greeting everyone good morning, making her day as positive as possible for she know there will be a very long day of stress and pressures. I know when someone will talk something behind my back because I have somehow had a little arguement with this person. It is human nature to find someone to listen to her rant so I know she have said something, a line or two or more about how she felt about what had happened.

I expected all that to happen. I do not really feel bad when she will talk behind my back. I do not care at all for I know I have a reason why and I have the right to be upset. If that is very "not professional" or I was disrespectful, so be it. I have said my word and I have intentionally displayed that I am upset.

My thought in all of these are; you can never really dictate somehow what to do if she is not willing to do it. No matter if it will help her and the company per se, you simply could not pre-thought that she will agree with your demands even though she have wholeheartedly expressed she will help you before. Another wiser thought on what had happened, it is a typical reaction of someone who is not a pro at interviews to react as if it was the end of the world for her. Nobody wants to see themselves on tv even if she has dreamt about being on tv a hundred times, she would not be on tv when she said she will not be on tv.

Just another thought before the day ends.

I hope older people would also adjust in all situations and would not expect the younger people to adjust all the time. Education should always be a win-win education. Two people could have learned on the process. I hope.

It's not a One Man Show

A team is never going to be a one man show. It is either a group of two or more. I just don't get it when others don't want to be part of the team and yet they have to be because in a way the company is paying them monthly so I guess they don't have choice. They've got to participate.

What happened?

A local tv reporter showed up, asking if he can interview someone who is knowledgeable enough regarding how medical transcription is done. I could have done it but I am not a medical transcriptionist, I know the industry but I have not tried doing it so I should have set it up with a real person doing the job. Let us give justice to what is being reported on tv, words should come out from the person who can give the truth on what and how medical transcription is done. I could have do it, I'm a marketing personnel I can make up stories, that's what all other people think of people in sales but I am not going to increase sales in a way that I am fooling and giving false information to possible prospects.

In any way you look at it, it's a business opportunity to increase awareness and it's free. The company won't have to spend anything on that interview. What sucks the most is that the employees running the company, who somehow promised to help this company rise is not at all cooperating. Alright, they don't like to be on tv, I respect that. Can they just think of what to answer before you eventually say what's on your mind?

Yes, this is a rant. Tomorrow this rant will change. Yes, you can answer me back but like you do, you simply just say what your first answer was not thinking that it could have helped the company progress.

Rainy Road Trip

It is supposed to be Sunday and I am supposed to be sleeping all day and watching TV but I got work to do. We, at MTC Academy, was invited to participate on a Jobs Fair at Digos City. We represented the ICT, Business and Medical Transcriptions and what are the jobs available for this sector. We love Digos because of it's yummy Rice Cake, Puto with Dinuguan and the Sotanghon.

As part of the marketing job that I am to do, I don't have a choice and since the only way to generate awareness and to continue the advocacy, even if it is Sunday I got to go there. I love to travel no matter how boring it is and for whatever is the purpose.

When we got to Digos, the weather seems to hate me and my boss, Wit Holganza, for it rained heavily and really not a good time for people to go to Jobs Fair. What we did, we bought handicrafts and green mangoes and of course, we hop in to the Agri Fair of the city to check on what's being displayed.

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Good News for Employees

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My Own Track to Financial Freedom?

There are so many like me who wanted to retire young and I am one of those. First, I have tried to work so hard through multi-level marketing and I have succeeded but to see those new recruits of those you have recruited before earned nothing because the company closed down, and I did not liked the end effect. I started to have my own desktop publishing with one computer but because you were new you have to invest more money to get the business going. Then I brought business to home and simply do what I do best in the field. And because it is home based business now, earnings normally go straight to the table for food.

Even though everything has to end sadly, I was able to save a sum of money which I am going to use for another business venture. I am an official loan shark. It was a good start no doubt but somehow I have to stop it because loaners never paid me back. Yes, they still owe me money. Now, I am back working. An official 8 hour work were someone will tell me what to do. I am happy I got my ever first 8 hour job.

With the 2 years of working, my savings is not that much though but what I have learned the best about working is that I was able to learn that earning is not like a dream that when you wake up it is over. Earning is both patience and hard work. Unlike multi-level marketing, earning is like an overnight dream. I always like this phrase, "Pay now, Play later."

It somehow tells me to exert effort today and you will reap your fruits tomorrow. Nothing in life is worth having if you do not invest a drop of sweat on it. I am pretty diligent when it comes to savings, and if there would be extra activities I have got to think of an idea on how to earn extra for me to join and do my extra activities. I do hope I will do good on this one.

Promises are not Made to be Broken

I have been recruiting transcriptionist to do some outsourced work for me since I can not do it all on my own. The agreement was just verbal since they were a graduate of the school I am working with. Doing transcription jobs is part time for me. I don't do medical transcriptions because according Health Insurance Portability and Accountability Act of 1996 ( HIPAA 1996), recorded medical files are confidential and it requires a thorough editing and proofreading job. For some, they do it as a stay-at-home job but still I would like the quality over quantity. It doesn't matter if it pays a lot more than general or business transcriptions, what matter is I am able to deliver a quality service to the client.

Again, going back to the agreement made last week, I was happy to know that I got eight files and I only need 3-4 transcriptionists that can type fast, has a computer and internet at home and the attitude that once they accepted the agreement they would do their part of the deal. It turned out to be the other way around. I was left doing all the eight files and now I have another 7 files to finish until tomorrow.

I know we did not sign any papers on this. Trust doesn't have to begin with signing a paper, it starts with the word, YES.

My Love for Marketing

This is not the first time that I wrote about my work. It is the love month for me so I also would like to share my love for my work.

I work in a one man marketing department wherein the owner of the company is the president and my marketing supervisor. I thought, at first, I will have a hard time for I am not a 100% marketing person as compared to medical representatives that really had a good training in sales and marketing. That's what I thought, and I am 50% right and 50% wrong about my assumptions.

I love my current job. It gives me the chance to be creative, be always on the look out to new things, and I got the opportunity that was never given to a marketing assistant to any company. My boss is kind enough to introduce me to the big people in the industry. My boss is kind enough to send me to trainings and seminars.

I have grown to be a person who appreciate money and the value of it. I have grown to a person with patience for everything will come in time only when you worked hard for it. I have grown to be a person with strong willed attitude to be able to get my goals. I have grown to incorporate my personal goals with my working goals.

In anything that you do, you can never get the satisfaction when you are not happy doing it. I

Laughter is the Best Medicine

My current boss hired me for a particular job because of some lame reason. She said I smiled a lot and it seems to be I am happy always. She said that during the interview I did not only answered her smartly but I always have that big smile in the end.

Yes, I do smile a lot. I laugh a lot. But I never ever make fun at other people just to bring laughter.

I've read once that laughter is the best medicine and I would say yes it has been my medicine from everyday stress.

There are a lot of things that bring smiles to my face. My nephews are included. My dear friend Daisy who could not comprehend right away. Nancy's little phrases out of movie titles or anything that is really nonsense (she's absolutely so funny about it). My preggy sister and Michelle King. And a lot more.

To quote: (from www.cbsnews.com)

We change physiologically when we laugh. We stretch muscles throughout our face and body, our pulse and blood pressure go up, and we breathe faster, sending more oxygen to our tissues.

People who believe in the benefits of laughter say it can be like a mild workout — and may offer some of the same advantages as a workout.

That's why I smile and laugh always. And so I will just smile at BR.

Grinding my Resources to Make it Through 15 days

It is not easy as my father would tell me about being employed. It sucks big time. Why? It sucks because you do not own your time, and even if you have the idea you can't just do it right away because it needs the approval of someone but the other side of being employed is learning the hardest way of getting things done in any business.

When you will hear how much I get from working, you would say; "Ok na yan." With so many things to do in any office, an employee like me most of the times feel that what we earn is not enough. I guess, it mostly the reason why employed personnel create such unions.

I started my after college career as trying to be a businesswoman. That's what I went to college for, to learn how to make and build business. It was described to me as something easy to do with some accounting and research and you are all set to go. In the real world, it was not supposed to be that way. There are a lot of things you need to consider before getting your feet in that door to the business world.

As an employee, 13 days of working hard would mean payroll. That's money. But to survive for 15 days is another situation where an employee like me has to face. The income derive from 13 days of working, is not enough for the 15 days of survival. I would want to have a second job but my first job makes me so tired at the end of the day and that's the reason why I can't find a full time 4 hour work at night.

When I first get to realize that I am not secured of my work right now, I began to think of getting my own business through small things. Earning a little from it would mean a lot for the future. And still I have to grind my income to make it through a 15 days of survival.

My "Hot Buttons"; The Sensitive Part of Me

Everyone has it. Everyone might not recognized it but it spoils their day. My "Hot Buttons" are the sensitive part that gets me irritated. You bet! I ain't talking about my other sensitive part, I'm talking about what makes me mad.

Things that makes me mad:
1. Taking my things from its place and not returning it back.
2. Forgetting you owe me something. ( I hate that!)
3. Making my Mondays look like a hell.

I do appreciate it if you can at least give me a valid reason but do not ever ever make up alibis or else it will make me more upset.

When I am upset at someone, I do count backwards. It helps a lot for me especially when I am at work and I don't have a choice, I could not simply go out and leave.

What makes you mad?

Light Bulb Head: Online Ideas

Do you ever had that time when you were too inspired to do something in the future and you keep on thinking about it and you noticed it is 3 am and your eyes are tired but your mind wants to keep on moving?

Last night wasn't terrible at all but I just can't control my mind anymore! My head is like a bulb all light up.

A shout out to Donald Lim of Yehey! Philippines. Dude! You were the only speaker I know that would share to your listeners what you are currently doing at your company.