A New Beginning

Horizons never seemed to end
bridges to pass are endless
Sunrise will soon be seen by these eyes
Eyes who cried for something worth loving

Who am I to stop and deny thy gifts to live life
What should I do to endure it's uncertainty
I am not looking for greatness
I am not longing for perfection

Sire, my happiness is all a wanderer's desire
Please thou bestow on me these wishes my heart make
Let thou partake life in such brevity
That thy life will be as what thou I shall be

Am BACK!!

I miss blogging. I'm writing more on paper than on my blog. I have totally neglected this and I will post three posts these weekend so expect it.

Thanks for dropping by. Don't forget to leave your comments, it'll help me to do better.

Whenever I See Your Smiling Face

Yep! It's a popular song from James Taylor. And it is in connection with my personal happiness.

M called in today. He's the one person making me smile since last April and May and until now. So I hope you like the song too.

Whenever I see your smiling face
I have to smile myself
Because I love you (Yes, I do)
And when you give me that pretty little pout
It turns me inside out
There's something about you, baby (I don't know)

(Chorus)
Isn't it amazing a man like me
Can feel this way
Tell me how much longer
It will grow stronger every day
Oh, how much longer

I thought I was in love
A couple of times before
With the girl next door
But that was long before I met you
Now I'm sure that I won't forget you
And I thank my lucky stars
That you are who you are
And not just another lovely lady
Sent down to break my heart

Isn't it amazing a man like me
Can feel this way
Tell me how much longer
It can grow stronger every day
How much longer

No one can tell me that I'm doing wrong today
Whenever I see you smile at me
No one can tell me that I'm doing wrong today
Whenever I see your smiling face my way
No one can tell me that I'm doing wrong today
No one can tell me that I'm doing wrong today

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Note: My real name is Princess Maye but everyone calls me......

Rainy Road Trip

It is supposed to be Sunday and I am supposed to be sleeping all day and watching TV but I got work to do. We, at MTC Academy, was invited to participate on a Jobs Fair at Digos City. We represented the ICT, Business and Medical Transcriptions and what are the jobs available for this sector. We love Digos because of it's yummy Rice Cake, Puto with Dinuguan and the Sotanghon.

As part of the marketing job that I am to do, I don't have a choice and since the only way to generate awareness and to continue the advocacy, even if it is Sunday I got to go there. I love to travel no matter how boring it is and for whatever is the purpose.

When we got to Digos, the weather seems to hate me and my boss, Wit Holganza, for it rained heavily and really not a good time for people to go to Jobs Fair. What we did, we bought handicrafts and green mangoes and of course, we hop in to the Agri Fair of the city to check on what's being displayed.

My Niece: Ashley Nicole

Boring Life of a Pretentious Lady

Pretending to have this and that would never get you anywhere. Well for some, temporarily they have attained such pedestal but they never stayed there long enough for others to notice them. What do I mean when I say noticed by others is that when you are really that high other people will not forget about you. It don't matter if you've done good or not what matters is when I say your name, others should remember who you are and how you look like.

Living a life of pretending you are someone when you go home and see yourself that you are not is such a big fucking LIE. It is far more better to live to the truth of what you are and what you have than to ever experience the big drop of popularity when one seems to notice and start investigating of who you are really. It'll be the hardest and very painful drop ever in your life.

Happiness is not about getting things in life, it is not about getting what you really want and not about getting all those money. It is more about what you can be to others and how others respond to who you are to you. If by chance you were true and then others won't noticed you today but soon appreciated your honestly as days went on, is the best to have happened to someone who's feet are always on the ground.

It is not easy to get attention and recognition for being honest. It is most likely to be the least of what is being seen by people but it is most likely will lead you to good people and a better life. For if by chance you've lived a lie then it is the worst thing ever and the very difficult thing to ever recover. I am not saying that you can no longer get back to number one, you can but you have to be willing to go through what you have just done. It is difficult to earn the trust back but it will be worth it for you might be earning more friends than ever.

It don't matter what you have, what matter is you're being true. It doesn't matter where you have been or what other changes are there in your life, what matter is that you were happy doing it and that when you go home you would see your self smiling and not thinking of what to lie tomorrow.

When It is Enough

There has been a lot of times when you would just swallow your pride because of different reasons under different circumstances. One can be because you don't see a way out and you thought it was the end of the road, you simply have to go into a small pathway like the needle to be able to get through life's challenges.

When do you say it is enough? Would you rather do it over and over again only because you are into the same situation and you thought it was appropriate?

The obvious thing is that you have been over and over that situation and you did not learn anything from it. You thought life is short and you wanted to live it happy. Then think about this, if you want to live life happy keep your feet grounded. It is not because you have been through life's misery you would now decide to party each night and pretend life blessing would be the same all of your life.

I wish I know how to tell you straightforward and still would not hurt your feelings but dude, grow up. Life is all about you. What you do, what you make out of every minute given to you everyday. If it comes to money, you can always work for it. Don't tell me you can't go to work only because you were not able to finish college. When you were given the chance to go to college did you do well? Did you go to school like you always say you will? Now you're telling me you can't find work. Who's fault is that?

You are actually given another chance now. You can go back to school but of course you're too shy because you're not that young anymore. When you were young did you ever thought of the fact that every morning you are getting older and that you can not just say, I'll just do it tomorrow.

I hope you do get to read this. I wanted to help but you looked at me as if I was making everything worse for you.

Love Won't Lead You Back to Me

It has been 6 months since I last feel this pain in my heart. I thought keeping it in the closet and not digging it up helps but turns out that I am not completely healed by time yet. I have loved him and I still do. There's one thing I have learned so far though, my pain is enormous than the love I have felt for him. This pain is eating me inside out but I was able to contain the pain gradually and now I have never felt happier for my fear to deal with the pain is gone.

I know I always see him online because he's on my Skype list of friends. I have deleted my yahoo account and deleted his name on my Yahoo Messenger list. I don't know exactly how to contact him but I have decided one day to log in to Skype to see how it will all flow. He's there, online, and I said hi. I have noticed there was no anger in my words. I am happy it turned out very well.

Days had passed and I suddenly got a pop out and it was from him asking if we could be friends for life. I didn't know what he meant by that at first but as conversation goes on, he want me back. For a moment there I wanted to go back because I am happy but I can't possibly go back now. I can't be a moron again.

When he dumped me for some stupid idea of claiming others baby as their own just for the sake of getting more money is absurd. It is even more painful to think of what he just told me that he's not going to fight anymore. He said he was an asshole at that time and now that he got his brains back, he want me back. Should I just let it go by me or should I not? I should not. Definitely not. Not because he told me he need me because he love me, I should go back to him. I got my pride. I have a pride that was swallowed because I know he needed some time, but to let 4 months pass by and I have never heard anything from him should be let go? I mean, I waited for months to hear him say, I need you back. He did not even remember my birthday.
There were a lot of lies. I have known that ever since, and no matter how many times I tried to make him tell me the truth he simply don't want to give an answer to my question, in which I just let it be. I love the person but I simply could not go on to this anymore. I am young and smart and I have moved on.