Too Soon to Contemplate

Have you ever had a time in any day that you were in a situation where in you doubt on things and you don't want to think about it because you know you are sure about it yet, if it's true or not?

This morning I woke up 30 minutes late from the usual get-up time. I know there is something bothering me and the past nights I could not sleep due to this one thing. I don't want to think of what to do about it since I am positive I can surpass such financial problem. I told myself that why is that I can't get it out of my subconscious. Should I plan? Should I give it attention? I look at attentively at a 8 pages mail that I received last month, and I give it a 10th round of reading still my decision is still the same with what I've decided before.

con·tem·plate (kŏn'təm-plāt')

1. To think or think about carefully and at length: chew on (or over), cogitate, consider, deliberate, entertain, excogitate, meditate, mull, muse, ponder, reflect, revolve, ruminate, study, think, think out, think over, think through, turn over, weigh. Idioms: cudgel one's brains, put on one's thinking cap, rack one's brain. See thoughts.
2. To have in mind as a goal or purpose: aim, design, intend, mean, plan, project, propose, purpose, target. Regional mind. See planned/unplanned, purpose/purposelessness.

I thought it is too soon to think about it but I guess I have to because I am thinking this is my instincts telling me go on think about it seriously.

My post today is personal and it has nothing to do with someone else.